Dear and beautiful people,

I am getting nervous again about my upcoming gigs. Eventhough there was officially never any reason to doubt if I can pull off a good show (or multiple shows in this case), I still get very nervous. Maybe the better word for the feeling should be insecure. I get insecure! The more I feel this insecurity when I actually am on stage, the more it influences my show in a negative way.

So now, today, past midnight on a rainy and dark october night, I am sitting myself down for a moment and re think that feeling:

I am telling myself that I CAN DO THIS and that I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE! Even a nasty rainshower can bring the most beautiful things to our doorsteps! (hence the picture above – a gorgeous double rainbow I saw last summer)

Walking my sweet dog earlier I started to realise that everything is great in it’s own way and somehow (this is the deep stuff like the meaning of life :D) naturally everything has it’s own terrific way of working out ALL THE TIME!

So….

HEREBY I LET GO OF MY URGE FOR CONTROL AND I PROMISE MYSELF TO TRUST IN THE FACT THAT IN WHATEVER WAY, SHAPE OR FORM… IT WILL ALL BE JUST FINE AND ALSO WILL BE EXACTLY WHAT I NEED.

hugs and ???